Am trying to get the house in order today. I am still not used to being home on the weekends, & I find that I sort of just flit about, hardly doing anything at all. It feels strange being around Brian so much now. Was so used to just seeing him sparingly, that now we do not know what to do with our time together.
We usually spend an hour or so lazing around in bed, while the kids run around & play games. This is, of course, if he has a ‘late morning’. Some mornings he is gone before I even wake up. Today was a late morning. I am usually the first to get up, open the blinds, turn off the lights. Let in the day. I get a glass of water, take some meds, & lay back down until they kick in. Then, if I feel I can sneak away, I take a quick shower. I always feel a million times better after a shower. Brian says he loves the Nicole that comes out of the shower, because she is always happier. He says she is “different than the regular Nicole.”
Then, I go in and out of every room, picking up, delegating, & trying to figure out what to do next. What is priority. Sometimes, I have a hard time keeping track of what I should really be doing, instead of what I am doing.
Hours later now, & I finished a lot of what I needed to. Laundry is being dried, floor vacuumed, kids fed. I am attempting to re-create the awesome pumpkin cookies I made a few weeks ago, & I think that using Splenda instead of regular sugar totally fucked them up. Oh, well. I am trying to make something to bring to Ciara’s little pre-K homeschool co-op thing that she goes to every other Monday. I am excited, since she had a blast last time. It is put together by some homeschooling Newberg moms. We get the girls together, & have fun doing crafts and learning about nature & seasonal things. I should bring my camera this time…
I ate one of those weirdo cookies, & now I feel all BLAH. I think it was the sugar. I really need to cut out the sugar, & now. It really screws with my moods & body. I feel like shit, & start lashing out at everything & everyone. Not a good thing. I need to tell myself that eating whatever it is that I want is not really worth it in the long run. I did have a big filling lunch of beans with a side of bean, though. Ha. It was actually really good.
Dinner is roast chicken, potatoes, broccoli, & something else that I can scrounge up. I need to get my grocery list in order so that Brian can pick everything up. We are going to try having him get the groceries on the way home, instead of all of us going, since it ends up being such an ordeal.
I used to go do the shopping when I got off work at the pharmacy ages ago. It would be one in the morning, & I would shop all by myself in that huge store. One night, there was a big ice storm, & I decided to go any way. It took me two hours to get home. I ended up finally getting into bed at four in the morning.
So, now I guess it is his turn!
